Yesterday, I was thinking how beautiful a new school year can be, and how it is a fresh start that is free of mistakes. Well, go ahead and reset the clock. I missed a meeting. I worked through lunch because I was leaving early for the Girl's orientation. I was bogged down in phone calls and looked up to discover I had missed a meet.
It was the 2nd meeting of the entire school year. This is neither an impressive nor great start.
My boss and team were great about it. Most had assumed that I had left for the Girl's orientation, and so weren't surprised that I wasn't in the room. I felt like a total loser-y goof.
I've got a perfectionism streak in me, as I once explained to my boss, "It isn't that I want to be a good teacher. I want to be the best teacher you've ever observed in your entire life, and I want to be that way every single day." High expectations, but far from reality. People goof up. I know I do! Luckily it was a short meeting that I missed, and was able to jump right into the next one, but still I'm not proud I missed meeting #2.
In the past, I would've obsessed over it. Night and day, day and night - it would be all I could think about it. Now, I've decided to chalk it up to a stupid mistake and move on. After all, what else can I do? It's not like I can reverse time like Superman.
Meanwhile, we officially have a middle school kid. We bought PE clothes so it is OFFICIAL. Remember PE clothes? They still have that big stripe across the front where you were supposed to put your LAST name so the PE teacher knew who the heck you were, and so you could find your PE shirt again in the locker room. Good times. Her PE shirt is teal which seems like a nice color until you see a field covered with people wearing it. My middle school's colors were green and white - so our shirts were a kind of kelly-green. They turned slightly grayish green over time.
We found her advisory classroom (homeroom) and now she knows where to go on her first day. She will get her schedule then. We are all dying to see her classes and she wants to see if any of her friends have the same classes as her. Her best buddy wasn't in her advisory class, but her best friend's twin brother is - so she's got a friendly face. I won't be there with her the first day to drop her off -- the Husband will do that. It is probably just as well because when she gets REALLY nervous, she gets cranky and when I get REALLY nervous, I get cranky - so space between us is a good idea.
FYI, I am always nervous the first day of school. It is no small thing to be the TEACHER up front and whatnot. You have to follow a new schedule and get used to a new group of students. Of course, since I started teaching computers, there is less stress over the newness of the students. I have the same students year after year. This year both K and 1st will be new to me -- I didn't teach them in the past. I'm a little stressed about it, but the normal kind of reasonable stress. It has been a little while since I taught the littlest of the littles. I taught 2nd grade for 8 years, and 1st for one. I taught Kinders during student teaching and that was a FEW YEARS ago. I like littles. Teaching them is fairly exhausting though which is why I was quick to volunteer to teach 2nd when offered.
I've got ONE more day of working in my classroom and meetings that I sure hope I remember to attend, and then it is the REAL DEAL. Be sure to lift a prayer for teachers everywhere - or a good thought. They are working pretty hard right now, but also remember to send those good thoughts to all the quiet, left-out, nervous kids who are thinking about their very first day.
Keep moving forward,