WHEN I GOT TO SCHOOL, just slight before 7 a.m. this morning (I know, Debbie, you are right), it was already warm. Worse than it being warm early; it was muggy. My air conditioner kicked on around 7:30 a.m. and I knew it was gonna be a hot day out on the blacktop.
Today was also the first day of our newest session of Leadership Academy. I’ve got a brand new crop of 4th and 5th graders. The first day is always interesting because the group of students gathered aren’t necessarily friends who hang out with each other. It takes a little bit of time for the group to find their groove. The group of students we have gathered seemed particularly able to think about group dynamics and what it means to be a leader. We discussed why they had joined and many said things like, “I want to be around people who are leaders,” and one kid even said, “I want to spend my time with scholars”. It was pretty impressive vocabulary for a 9 year old.
I was slightly off my game today. Our schedule is all new, and I was thinking of an old transition time towards the later 1/2 of the day. I wasn’t late for my class, but the transition was sudden to me because I caught it just in time. The internal workings of a teacher’s thoughts have a tremendous impact on the students. I had to really lean in and focus to stay on track. I see the same group of students tomorrow, so I have an opportunity to be better prepared.
I suppose in a larger sense, our internal life is what impacts everyone around us. It isn’t just teachers. You can see it easily in a classroom, but it is true of my life outside of school, as well. When I am off-kilter internally it can easily spill out onto how I treat people around me, and how I react to whatever rolls my way. I desire to be the kind of person that can manage my own stresses in such a way that it doesn’t impact those around me, but sometimes I fall short. You know that feeling, right? You are running late, so you arrive short of breath and sort of discombobulated and that isn’t how you want to be. I was able to settle in, and focus. Using mindfulness in class has really helped me to remember to slow down and be in the moment.
Meanwhile, my 1st graders were so adorable today. They are so genuinely filled with joy at every tiny victory. They are working their way through a reading game, and got so excited as they leveled up. It was fantastic to see their faces glowing with joy as they correctly identified each letter and sound. I want to live in that kind of simple, honest happiness. Children are so naturally curious and open which is why it is such an awesome thing to be a teacher.
You probably won’t hear from me about day 8, as it happens to fall on the Offspring’s 14th birthday. That’s write I am HECKA old. We will no doubt spend the evening at Chipotle and then basking in the glory of her birthday.
Keep moving forward,